impossible to leave, she departs,
tragedy chuckles in knotted hearts.
tied together, odd adjunct,
night uncloaks alarm,
she wakes up every day
hands touching mound of birth,
unable to dispatch.
sometimes, in the dark,
she curls up,
encases hopeless misery;
a weeping, tear filled sort of hourglass.
time traps tragedy;
after loss after loss
scrapes the womb clean.
you, unmothered, motherless, motherer,
cannot, will not protect the unbirthed.
love lover's frailty.
lover's loveless grief.
gold to ash to gold,
from lover to the unloved.
why can't strangers remain
unknown in the least, unknown at most?
sits on a stone, this mute child of death.
says not a word, watching love groan.
savage child does not kill, waiting
for love to take love's life.
i watch from this hole -
binary depositions, fetile arrangements.
beyond this hole, out of mirth,
juvenile spat inherit the earth.
i watch from this hole, incapable of birth.
fragile pearls, they slip, they smile
unafraid, with spleen, they shine.
and i, i grow rusty from the core.